never die

from signs of a struggle by seranine

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scientists have discovered
that there’s a black hole in my chest
light and heat can’t escape it
they get pulled in like the rest
my bright hopes
and my burning desires
are subsumed in this long-dead star’s mass
my heart spaghettified
by such gravity
is pulled until there’s nothing left
and i

let my heart go
i let my heart go
i let my my my heart go
i let it go

therapists have uncovered
the ravening pit in my brain
all its teeth pointed inward
lining the path of escape
my best ideas are covered in gore
from the holes
that those teeth helped create
too disturbing to be
shared aloud
so i keep them inside and i shake
while i

let my mind go
i let my mind go
i let my my my mind go
i let it go

i had finally recovered
insight that i had forgot
that each soul lives forever
whether it wants to or not
i was not born
so it can’t be said
there will ever be an end to my life
i find nothing more terrifying
than the idea
that i’ll never die

i let my soul go
i let my soul go
i let my my my soul go
i let it go

scientists have discovered
that there’s a black hole in my chest

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from signs of a struggle, released April 12, 2019
© 2013 seranine elliot

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